sophisticity

Everything came from the water, should come back through it.
Everything came from the wind, should flyback within it.
Everything's come from GOD, and will be back to GOD.
That's what they all saying, and I don't really like it when the time's coming.

Watching all people dressed in black, saying the saddest words, showing the deepest grave-face, praying each seconds 'till they could never see the face again, crying for someone they wouldn't ever talking to again for the rest of their life.

I hate sematary...

Selain karena di tempat pemakaman gw sering melihat&mendengar byk makhluk halus (bahkan kadang ada yg ngikutin sampe gw pulang ke rumah).
Selain karena tempat pemakaman mengingatkan gw akan semua perbuatan2 gw, dan merasa jd manusia paling berdosa (walaupun beberapa hari setelahnya, msh tetep berbuat dosa)
Selain karena tempat pemakaman mengingatkan gw pada adik gw yg wafat di usianya yg masih sangat muda sekali.
Selain karena tempat pemakaman mengingatkan gw pada seseorang yg pernah gw sayang bgt yang juga meninggal di usianya yg masih muda.
Selain karena tempat pemakaman mengingatkan gw pada raut muka sedih sahabat gw yang kehilangan papa-nya sewaktu masa kuliah tingkat 5.
Selain karena tempat pemakaman mengingatkan gw pada diri gw sendiri.

Yang jelas bukan karena di tempat pemakaman-lah gw harus menerima kenyataan bahwa itulah saat terakhir kali bisa melihat wajahnya, sosoknya, untuk terakhir kali. Karena gw sadar udh nggak ada jalan lain untuk menemuinya lagi kecuali kalau gw juga mati. Jadi gw harus pasrah menerima perpisahan itu.

I hate sematary...

Because it somehow makes me realize that it could happened to myself, to my parents, to my bestfriends, to everyone I love, anytime, anywhere, anyhow, AND, I don't even have a chance to say :

I'm sory for all my mistakes, purposely, unpurposely
I'm so sory also that I never thank you
Thank you for being part of my life
Thank you for all the time we've share
Thank you for your understanding
Thank you for all your mistakes that makes me learn something(s)
It's really a pleasure for me to know u...
You're so irreplaceble in my heart.
I hope u know even if I never told u these...


dedicated to Dini Elphitanya (ARS UI angkatan 2001)
Who just rested in peace on Friday, 25 Januari 2008, 07:25 WIB